Posting your personal thoughts for all to see can be a risk not worth taking. I used to snub and mock people who blogged as I thought it was a waste of time and who cares what you have to say anyway. Well, we all learn and I have learned that this has become a great outlet for me to vent, to see my thoughts in front of me and to be challenged.
I have encountered other people who are in similar situations as myself and that has given me hope, re-assurance and a weird form of camaraderie. Comments left behind are “keep going, you’re on the right track” or “we are praying for you and love you”. And these are from people across the globe not from my own town or ‘church’.
Anyway, to get to the point, I encountered someone who in a similar situation as mine and he started a blog: http://multiversity.wordpress.com/ I love his title of Parallel Universe because I could relate to it immediately. Since we have not been attending the club since spring, it seems that that universe keeps on trucking by and we are now living beside it or outside of it looking in. I see more clearly now that it is a club (at least in our situation) and instead of seeing the people and the institution as being one and therefore blaming all the people associated with it, we are beginning to see the people as individuals that are part of the institution because of the same reasons we once were. Our salvation was attached to the corporate church as not being part of the family was rejecting Jesus. And we feared this. We feared that attendance was our anchor and if we left, we would simply float away. We believed that God was smiling down on us when we sang those hymns and choruses. After reading the sermon on the mount, it seems quite clear that he is more concerned about how we are treating those around us. Those that are lacking in hope and are in need of the basic comforts of life. I have a close connection to someone that works at Siloam Mission in Winnipeg. Definitely a worthwhile organization to get involved in and support. Another example of Jesus in the flesh.
A lot has happened here lately and I hope to comment on it in future posts, until then…seek.
